Influenster Voxbox, L’Oréal EverCreme Sulfate Free Moisture Collection.

img_7045Hi everyone! I know it’s been forever since I last posted. Things just have been absolutely CRAZY!! Anyhow, I’ve been receiving Voxbox’s from Influenster and I thought I’d blog about my latest box.

Ive been REALLY hating my hair lately! It has been so dry, brittle and thanks to my thyroid has been coming out in clumps! So when you’re on the trying to grow your hair out phase this makes it even more difficult!

So, I received the L’Oréal EverCreme Sulfate Free Moisture Shampoo, Conditioner and Renourishing Butter and…it’s AMAZING!!! I am beyond impressed!! It’s made my hair so soft, supple and manegable! I will continue to buy these products for sure!! What’s even better is that they are affordable!

Thanks Influenster!!

*these opinions are strictly my own. I was given these products simply for an honest review.

Migraine HELL! 

If you’ve ever had a Migraine in your life then you know how I’m feeling right now. If you’ve never had one, consider yourself LUCKY!!!

 I am what they call a Chronic Migraine Sufferer. Meaning, I get them 15-20 times per month. What do they feel like? I feel like they’re different for everyone, pain wise they can be on either side of your head or even both. Mine tend to be on the right side and forehead area. Imagine a tool called a vice grip, with your head in between and then the part that tightens the grip, just keeps turning and turning never stopping. And imagine that pain being CONSTANT, NEVER STOPPING, just INTENSIFYING! 


This pain typically lasts anywhere from 12-48 hours, many times I have had a migraine that lasts a whole week! 

I’m posting this because I’ve had people in my life who haven’t always known how I feel or who have made comments about how you can’t really be in pain that much. Those comments hurt, it hurts to have people not believe you or question how you’re truly feeling. Would I really lie about pain? If I could be pain free all the time I would be SOO very happy!! 

That’s my rant for today…I’m on a level 10+ migraine right now…Thanks for allowing me to vent. 

Time has flown!! Catching up!!

Time has flown!! Catching up!!

I can NOT believe its been 2 years since I last published something!! Time has just been crazy and so many things have happened. Time really does fly, doesn’t it? 

I know for one thing, I can’t even believe my precious baby is 2 already! The last time I wrote, I was around 28 weeks pregnant. Baby Grayson (aka Baby Handsome, as we call him) arrived at 34 1/2 weeks because of a syndrome called HELLP. 

HELLP syndrome is a life-threatening pregnancy complication usually considered to be a variant of preeclampsia. Both conditions usually occur during the later stages of pregnancy, or sometimes after childbirth.

H (hemolysis, which is the breaking down of red blood cells)
EL (elevated liver enzymes)

LP (low platelet count)

Baby Grayson stayed in the NICU for 2 weeks so, I had my hands full. I think just being a new Mom in general is hard but when you have a preemie it’s even harder because of all the risks. 

We have been so blessed with our sweet boy! He’s been healthy and so far just 2 minor surgeries, one to open his left tear duct and one to untie his tongue. Little boys surely hold their Mommys hearts in their hands. 


March 2nd of this year, we lost my 2nd Dad, the Dad who taught me what it meant to have a true dad. My “stepdad” Paul. He had a stroke February 23, 2015 and was paralyzed on his left side, and never regained his strength from that. His heart was very weak to start with and the stroke just complicated it even more. He was an amazing man, the best man I’ve ever known. His physical heart was weak but his love was strong! 

So now here we are, July 5! We are currently waiting on our new (brand new!!) apartment to be finished. I’m soo very excited, I can’t wait to decorate! My husband got a new job at the end of April and he’s doing so Awesome! I’m so very proud of him and it makes me happy that he loves his job. 


August 23 we will celebrate our 3 year Wedding Anniversary and September 15 we will have been together 4 years…just WOW!! 😍😍 


How does one put into words just how BLESSED she is? For so many years, I prayed and cried out to God to send me a man that wanted to spend his life with me and give me children. I always felt in those moments that I’d end up alone without anyone, that somehow I didn’t deserve that kind of love. But guess what?He GAVE it to me! When I wasn’t even looking and had stopped “pestering” him about it. And he gave me a wonderful man. A man that loved my 2nd dad as his own. Those two were so close, once they met they were always texting and talking about both of their favorite subjects, Food! It was immensely fulfilling to know that I had a guy that my dad loved!! And once Baby Grayson came, he became Paw Paw and baby Grayson had him wrapped around his finger.


I’m filled with happiness, joy and sorrow tonight. I’m missing this man a lot! 

So I’m somewhat caught up…maybe the in between story next time. 🙂 

Peace & Love to you all!

Sam

all but a dream-in memory of my Dad, Daniel

This poem came to me last night as I had been thinking about my Daddy lately. My Dad left us Christmas Eve 2008 to be with God, his poor body just couldn’t handle the cancer. He’s been on my mind a great deal lately, probably because I am 28 weeks pregnant with his grandson-my first child. I know this is something he really looked forward to and I know he would want to be here but the cancer was just too much for him. My half sister and I talked a great deal about him yesterday and even went through some of his personal things. I now have his military flag that they placed on his coffin at his funeral, it really means more to me than I could have ever guessed. My son, Grayson will have something of his Paw Paw’s since he cannot physically be here with us. What material item do you have to remember your loved ones by and does it make you think about them more or is it just sitting on a shelf never being thought about? 

 

it was a bright, beautiful and crisp day

on that depressing new years eve day five years ago

as your funeral procession slowly

made its way down highway 61 to

your final resting place

 

with each turn my breath grew more

and more ragged with fear

this really was the end of your yesteryear

and I was saying goodbye

to my daddy

 

much too soon and without warning

my heartbeat raced with anxiety

which screamed to stop, stop

no seriously STOP

I cannot do this, no I need you to wake me up

 

tell me it was a dream and sit up

and argue with me

I would take our disagreements

right now because it would mean

that you were here and it was all but a nightmare

Too Fast

I did write a poem in the coffee shop last week-yayy for feeling accomplished! Tell me your thoughts..

Too Fast–

 

tonight someone will hurt and cry

and scream at God and beg why

 

billions of people wander the world

never imagining their lives could be swirled

 

with each human we meet

always being so discreet

 

running in a two sided fast lane

shuddering when reduced to a grain

 

why do we still wonder

living life so fast to not ponder

What makes a Writer an actual “Writer”?

I find myself constantly questioning If anyone would ever take me seriously in the writing world. What makes someone a true writer and what makes someone who just “thinks” they are a writer? Am I digging too deep, probably YES!! I am nearing my 28th week of being pregnant and I question everything I do, everything I say to others and honestly just life in general-not in a bad way but more in a broad big sense picture. 

I don’t work, I am on disability for my migraines which is actually sort of a blessing in disguise since I will have a little bundle of joy in oh about 12 or so weeks. 🙂 I am ecstatic about our little boy, Grayson Anthony making his appearance but I am still doing that questioning thing.. Will I be a good Mommy, will i know everything to do when he’s sick and so on; I suppose it’s just the normal first time Mommy to be nerves.

So, to get back to the writing thing, I have not wrote a single poem since around the time we found out about our little bundle-it’s been way too long and last week I decided to change that. So, I drove myself to my favorite coffee place and sat down with a pencil and paper and just tried to write. Lo and behold it was HARD and the ideas did NOT just flow like I thought they would, though I did have a couple of ideas written down from the night before; strange how you’re laying down trying to sleep and THAT’S when ideas just want to pour out of your brain…umm thanks i guess? 

According to Merriam Webster this is the definition of a Writer-

writ·er

 noun \ˈrī-tər\

: someone whose work is to write books, poems, stories, etc.

: someone who has written something

Aha! Because I have “written” something that confirms I AM indeed a writer! Well, they have really made it easy for me haven’t they? Still, my common sense comes flooding back to me and reminds me that I am nowhere near any of the greats like Edgar Allan Poe, Shakespeare, e.e. cummings or any of the Amazing poets of the past. BUT, it does make me feel good to know that I can TRY to write as brilliantly as they and that no matter who will ever read my words, it is simply how my works make ME feel! And I do typically write about my life and how I see things so it’s sort of free counseling if ya will…

What are your thoughts on being a writer? Do you consider yourself one or just someone who likes to write? 

Fun Ranting from a 8 week Pregnant Lady!

HI all!

Hope you all are doing Amazing! So, my husband and I are now pregnant with our first child-excited to say the LEAST! It is truly a blessing that I always thought I would never get to partake in, mostly because of the relationships I subjected myself to and other things. We found out we were pregnant about 3 weeks ago and though they say you shouldn’t tell the good news until after week 12, well, we just couldn’t keep it to ourselves. Our bundle of Joy should arrive around late May 2014.

With all that being said, we have been married over a month, closer to 50 days I believe and nothing really has changed relationship wise. Were still just as committed to one another as before, only now we get to call each other “hubby” and “wifey” but still, Marriage is a Awesome gift that God has given to us! Now, I am staying at home as I was approved for disability for my Chronic Migraines; can I tell you what a HUGE blessing that was? I can not and have never been a great employee because of these debilitating monsters, it was always my attendance being the problem.. Since I am staying at home, that means I try to do more household things around this place-you know laundry, cleaning, cooking, etc… Again, I said “I try” because I am now in the Nausea faze of this pregnancy and I feel like I am DYING!! Of course saying all that, now you may understand WHY I am ranting about something as small as it is..

I have told my Husband since the day we moved in together, when you take a shirt off a hanger in the closet to wear, take the hanger off the rod… Why? It makes it easier to collect them when I am folding clothes, and yet it seems like it is such a HARD task to accomplish.. Day after day, I find more and MORE hangers on the rack; and oh let’s not mention how he hangs his clothes if I don’t do it.. I have organized our closet, all the button down shirts together, all t-shirts, all pants, etc.. Just now, I found a pair of jeans smack dab in the middle of it all!!! 

Oh jeesum! Whatever will I do… SOOO, what is your ONE rant about your significant other that really gets to you because they never listen?